Musings of An Old Man

by Brian K. Moore

IT STILL HURTS

It is September 3rd 2009. In six days it will be nine months since my beautiful, wonderful Phyllis was taken from me.

I have been told about how the hurt and grief will heal with time. I don’t think that I will ever know how much time it takes, because I don’t even want it to heal! I want to keep Phyllis and how wonderful she was and how much I loved her fresh in my memory. That will hurt! But that’s how it has to be.

As I think back on my life with Phyllis, I think, God it was good, but I have also thought that there were things that I could have said or done that could have made it even better.

I don’t chide myself with the thought that I might have done even better. After all this was my first try at being a husband and I think I did a Damn good job.

I just want to remember, and I want others to remember, how good it was and how long it lasted, and if it doesn’t heal and continues to hurt. SO BE IT!